I take great care.
I just had one of those moments.
My focus was on a movie, not a particularly interesting one, but one that somehow had managed to capture me regardless. These eyes of mine had zeroed and I had quieted. But what was so wonderful was that when I realized my mind had drifted, my eyes in turn had widened and in an instant I was able to take in where I was and what I was.
I had been hugging myself and doing a very good job at it. I was alone, but ok. I was not hungry, or tired, scared or happy. I didn't have to pee. And I realized that I had been sitting still amidst all this solitude for some time now and like with the movie, I had drifted into it without even noticing.
I think I have been alone my whole life and I think there was a time when being just me didn't hurt.
I have been chasing an elusive sense of belonging, forgetting that I always belonged to me - and that I take great care of what is mine.
My focus was on a movie, not a particularly interesting one, but one that somehow had managed to capture me regardless. These eyes of mine had zeroed and I had quieted. But what was so wonderful was that when I realized my mind had drifted, my eyes in turn had widened and in an instant I was able to take in where I was and what I was.
I had been hugging myself and doing a very good job at it. I was alone, but ok. I was not hungry, or tired, scared or happy. I didn't have to pee. And I realized that I had been sitting still amidst all this solitude for some time now and like with the movie, I had drifted into it without even noticing.
I think I have been alone my whole life and I think there was a time when being just me didn't hurt.
I have been chasing an elusive sense of belonging, forgetting that I always belonged to me - and that I take great care of what is mine.
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